[He's grateful to see he isn't the only one who thinks the whole situation is strange. After he reads Will's reply he begins typing out a response, though it takes him a few minutes to get everything sent.]
no way for some reason when i look at them i get i don't know mad?
[He's struggling to describe how he's feeling in words. It's mishmash of frustration at both himself and the townspeople, general confusion, and an incongruous sort of offended, of all things. Above all, a deep-seated need to grow things, and to do it better than the rest of them.]
or something they're stupid right? the townspeople they're stupid for making those stupid crowns
[ Mad. He gets mad. Will thinks that one over, hasn't quite settled it into an assumption by the time he gets the rest of the texts.
Something like anxiety itches at him. A certain sadness that they don't agree, bolstered afterwards by— something. His new friends and knowing that they're harmless? The sensations merging with his own from Fern and realizing he thinks he knows how to fix it, even if he doesn't even realize they aren't all his feelings? ]
i think some of them look nice, actually the crowns it's a symbol. lots of symbols in one. you can see what you want to in them
symbols? i don't know anything about symbols i just
i look at them and i feel like i need to do something but i don't really get what and what the townies are doing is all wrong it all just makes me angry
[Overwhelmed, more like. But getting overwhelmed by emotions he doesn't understand isn't anything new to Fern.]
i've been growing a ton of flowers and junk too some of it shaped like their stupid crowns mine look way better than theirs though
[And as soon as he sends that text he's staring down at his Fluid, scrutinizing the words.]
i mean that's a gut feeling i don't even know why it matters when it's all just dumb plants but mine are better
usually when you feel like you need to do something, it's pretty clear-cut. and violent so it sounds like that's not it this time
you're growing your own crowns? [ The idea of Fern growing crowns, of his new friends and his new family converging into one act of creativity, feels significant to Will. He wants it. ]
[ Hmm. Will doesn't usually set firm boundaries with Fern, but...this feels important. ] i'd appreciate it if you didn't.
you'd make one for me? [ Something just for Will? A unique tie between the two of them? ] i'd love one thank you, Fern will you wear one of yours, too?
i guess not. [ He knows not. Will knows something is up, but the desperation to believe in this, to be soothed by it, is urged along by the town itself, by the pulse of worry for being alone, by everything that's happened so far this month. He can't see clearly through the smoke, or at least he doesn't want to. ] it was nice, though. i believed him. he was sincere.
i'd like that. i'd keep all of them. [ u sure your sin isn't greed, buddy ]
[That one stings, given the entire reason the two of them met was because of his own loneliness, and Will wanting to "help" using the hallucinogenic pollen. This could be another incident like that, or Will could be completely right.
Either way, Fern isn't sure he should feel stubbornly offended (you aren't alone is what he wants to type), or go along with what he, both an authority and father figure, believes on the off-chance this is indeed a good opportunity to desperately stave off further loneliness.]
i don't know, i don't trust them but i trust you when you're more sure of what's going on tell me
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wontgraham) wrote2019-04-10 08:46 pm
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no way
for some reason when i look at them i get
i don't know
mad?
[He's struggling to describe how he's feeling in words. It's mishmash of frustration at both himself and the townspeople, general confusion, and an incongruous sort of offended, of all things. Above all, a deep-seated need to grow things, and to do it better than the rest of them.]
or something
they're stupid right?
the townspeople
they're stupid for making those stupid crowns
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Something like anxiety itches at him. A certain sadness that they don't agree, bolstered afterwards by— something. His new friends and knowing that they're harmless? The sensations merging with his own from Fern and realizing he thinks he knows how to fix it, even if he doesn't even realize they aren't all his feelings? ]
i think some of them look nice, actually
the crowns
it's a symbol. lots of symbols in one. you can see what you want to in them
why don't you like them? what do you see?
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i just
i look at them and i feel like i need to do something
but i don't really get what
and what the townies are doing is all wrong
it all just makes me angry
[Overwhelmed, more like. But getting overwhelmed by emotions he doesn't understand isn't anything new to Fern.]
i've been growing a ton of flowers and junk too
some of it shaped like their stupid crowns
mine look way better than theirs though
[And as soon as he sends that text he's staring down at his Fluid, scrutinizing the words.]
i mean
that's a gut feeling
i don't even know why it matters when it's all just dumb plants
but mine are better
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so it sounds like that's not it this time
you're growing your own crowns? [ The idea of Fern growing crowns, of his new friends and his new family converging into one act of creativity, feels significant to Will. He wants it. ]
i bet yours look great
can i see?
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[Just Fern being Fern.]
you do?
sure okay
i can try making one for you
or however many
you can have as many of them as you want
so you don't have to wear the dumb ones
[He'd like that, and he's hoping Will would appreciate it as much as he wants him to appreciate it.]
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you'd make one for me? [ Something just for Will? A unique tie between the two of them? ]
i'd love one
thank you, Fern
will you wear one of yours, too?
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[Unless Will is concerned about him getting in trouble with the Authority, which would be sensible.]
great
i don't know about making one for me
stuff's already growing on me whether i want it to or not
so i think i'm covered
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and you might get in trouble with the cats.
so you have flowers on you already?
that must look nice [ Will please calm down, you haven't even hit the hallucinogenic tea yet... ]
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they're annoying
every time i pull them out they grow back
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sounds like you could make a lot of flower crowns
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oh yeah
loads of them
i can make you a ton no problem
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i'd like that. i'd keep all of them. [ u sure your sin isn't greed, buddy ]
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that happened to me once
it turned into a real bad situation
ok sure i'll bring a bunch over
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whatever it ends up being, I'd rather find out myself instead of assuming
[ Will is very determined to huff his own fumes over this issue. ]
Hahaha nice
Either way, Fern isn't sure he should feel stubbornly offended (you aren't alone is what he wants to type), or go along with what he, both an authority and father figure, believes on the off-chance this is indeed a good opportunity to desperately stave off further loneliness.]
i don't know, i don't trust them
but i trust you
when you're more sure of what's going on tell me
i'll bring the flowers over later